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 時間  2004/11/02 Tue 23:24:36
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
有的，每個人都有面具。
                                                                                
不管自己知不知道，總有個一兩付面具。
                                                                                
那麼，我突然想到，當我摘下面具，我是什麼呢？
                                                                                
哪一張面具又最接近真正的我？
                                                                                
想不透，一定。
                                                                                
可能連自己都已說服自己，那付面具就是我，我就是那付面具。
                                                                                
找自己，做自己，被一堆作家、心靈導師說了無數次的詞。
                                                                                
可什麼是自己？
                                                                                



要糟，再下去又玩到哲學去了。
                                                                                
這麼有趣的話題還是交給偉人去沉思吧，
                                                                                
我是死老百姓，而且我不是阿甘，媽媽不會跟我說。
                                                                                
更不可能用模型來解釋，所有變數加進去，推導時間是，一輩子。
                                                                                


所以我真的不懂，那些作家怎有能力去指導人生？還是別人的...
                                                                                


狂妄了，我只是覺得人生沒有什麼是對是錯，
                                                                                
別人會快樂的模式不見得能套用到自己身上，
                                                                                
更別說是幸福了，那太深奧了。
                                                                                
可偏偏會看到有人在面前定義幸福，
                                                                                
那又怎樣？是你幸福又不是我。
                                                                                



高第蓋座教堂花了一百多年到現在還沒好，
                                                                                
比我多長幾歲就可以跟我講解幸福？
                                                                                
老實說，我不以為然。
                                                                                



然後，我是不受教。