PRESENT

 時間  2005/09/01 Thu 00:07:29
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
耳邊是轟然巨響的引擎聲，不是一般的汽機車引擎，
                                                                                
是一種，更低沉且持續的聲音。
                                                                                
地面上傳來的震動，讓我發現我站在一個類似船上的空間，沒有海風，
                                                                                
我發現我站在一個內部的空間。
                                                                                
轟隆轟隆～
                                                                                
我有一種相對壓抑的感覺，就像是，電影用暗色系濾光鏡的感覺。
                                                                                
也許夢通常都是這樣，是相對壓抑而暗沉的。
                                                                                
我不能控制我自己，我看到我走到一面大窗子前，我往下看。
                                                                                
我看到的是，陸地，許許多多的火柴盒大小的建築，陳列在灰矇矇大地上，
                                                                                
時而居然有一陣陣的火光。
                                                                                
這時我身後的一扇門打開，幾個穿著軍服的軍官走了進來，我不曉得那是哪一國的軍服，
                                                                                
但我知道，金髮碧眼的他們不太可能是亞洲人。
                                                                                
他們首先跟我行軍禮，說什麼，我怎麼可能知道？
                                                                                
總之我看到的是，幾個人臉上都是一付情況不樂觀的表情，甚至還有一點點的希望，
                                                                                
希望我去做一些事情。
                                                                                
只見我下了幾道命令，那些人雖然看起來不願意，還是敬了禮出去了。
                                                                                
我的感覺很詭異，好像再看一部歷史軍事片，可是我知道我就是他，他就是我。
                                                                                
轟隆轟隆～
                                                                                
我又走到了窗戶邊，我感覺到我嘆了一口氣。
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
畫面忽然的平移，中間我沒有記憶，我只有感覺，很悲傷卻又理所當然的感覺。
                                                                                
然候出現在我面前的，還是之前那一群軍官。
                                                                                
他們似乎在跟我爭論什麼，我本來是一直不答應的，可是其中一個軍官，
                                                                                
他遞給我一塊軍牌，和一封信。
                                                                                
我看完以後，我感覺我的眼淚滴了下來。
                                                                                
然後我點了點頭，一群人登上了一台飛艇，我才知道，原來當初我是在飛艇上，
                                                                                
似乎我還是艦長之類的？
                                                                                
不過我還做了一些小動作...
                                                                                
                                                                                
轟隆轟隆～
                                                                                
                                                                                
起飛，飛艇緩慢的上昇，螺旋槳嘎嘎的聲音開始響起，有一種一往無回的氣勢。
                                                                                
地面上，剛剛勸我的那一群軍官，正被幾個士兵押著，都一臉悲憤的在叫些什麼，
                                                                                
是我剛剛的小動作...
                                                                                
一段不短的旅程，我來到海面上，前方不遠有著一艘很大的船，
                                                                                
我感覺我的飛艇盡全力的往那艘船衝過去，我很清楚這是自殺，
                                                                                
但好像我是執意的要這麼做，飛艇上的機槍也不斷的掃射。
                                                                                
我有一種解脫的覺悟，飛艇本身就是一顆易爆的炸彈，
                                                                                
我只知道我要盡量的接近那艘船艦。
                                                                                
不過，在還有一段距離的時候，我只覺得一陣熱浪襲來，
                                                                                
我滿身是汗，還是血？總之從額頭上留下的液體，讓我感到不舒服。
                                                                                
幸好，一切很快都將結束，我閉上眼睛，等待著什麼的來臨。
                                                                                
眼皮外面卻是一陣光亮襲來！
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
                                                                                
天亮了，冷氣也不知道在什麼時候已經關了，額頭上有一些汗水。
                                                                                
我呼了一口氣，躺回床上，放鬆身上緊繃的肌肉。