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女孩
                                                                                
她生在一個幸福的環境之下，過著舒適的生活。
                                                                                
家裡雖不是大富大貴，卻也不愁吃穿，生活充裕。
                                                                                
女孩很聰明，雖然因為她的聰明，讓她不是很用功，卻也是讓她考上了國立大學。
                                                                                
她對生活唯一的怨嘆，便是她從未有過戀愛，女孩很可愛，也很受歡迎，
                                                                                
身邊不乏追求者。
                                                                                
女孩心目中的愛情，就像許多的偶像劇、文藝小說一般，是唯美浪漫的，
                                                                                
對方是高大而英俊的，家裡雖然不一定要有錢，但是逛逛街買東西送她不能缺，
                                                                                
還得有才華，會運動，出手大方不吝嗇。
                                                                                
她常問身邊的人，為什麼她老是遇不到她的 Mr.right，沒有人給她答案，
                                                                                
她依舊尋找她的 Mr.right 。
                                                                                
女孩倒不是眼高於頂，她也有過幾個暗戀的對象，不過不知道為什麼，她老是失敗者，
                                                                               
不，愛情裡沒有誰贏誰輸，只不過老是不如她意。
                                                                               
於是女孩覺得一定是環境的問題，她便毅然地決定轉學考，她的父母也開明，
                                                                               
即使女孩從小學什麼都怕苦，做事往往只有三分鐘熱度，學芭蕾如此，
                                                                               
學鋼琴如此，學日文如此，仍然願意花錢讓她去補習，因為他們相信她會找到她自己想做
                                                                               
的事，相信她。
                                                                               
在苦讀幾個月後，女孩發現她不確定自己是不是真的想走。因為，她捨不得那些個好姊妹
                                                                               
們；因為，她捨不得班上同學；因為...她又喜歡上了一個男孩。
                                                                               
女孩猶豫了，她並不想半途而廢，卻也沒有當初一開始的熱情了。
                                                                               
每天去學校只想看到他，跟他打個昭呼。每天晚上即使再累也要上MSN就為了等他上線，
                                                                               
跟他聊個幾句就心滿意足。
                                                                               
只是，男孩似乎沒有她想像中的熱情回應，對她也僅止於客套禮貌。
                                                                               
女孩好傷心，她不懂他為什麼看不到她。
                                                                               
女孩好傷心，她不懂為什麼她都已經暗示了那麼明顯男孩還是沒有回應。
                                                                               
女孩一想到之前一樣類似的經驗，就覺得非常委屈，
                                                                               
難道她非得倒貼跑到對方面前求對方要她才會有人要嗎？
                                                                               
難道她的條件就那麼差？
                                                                               
女孩越來越不快樂，以前她給人的感覺是甜甜的粉紅色，而最近，
                                                                               
她雖然依舊是粉紅色的，卻已經染上了一絲灰色。
                                                                               
MSN上的暱稱，也出現了一些為情所困的句子，不過，男孩似乎是沒注意到似的，
                                                                               
並沒有問她。
                                                                               
而在和其他人的相處上，她也越來越沒有交集，由於她必須補習，讀書，
                                                                               
所以原本參加的排球系隊，她也都不能到了。
                                                                               
她生性是喜歡熱鬧的，也喜歡交朋友，當然也愛玩。
                                                                               
她覺得她犧牲了好多好多的東西，應該要考上的，不過，就算是沒考上，
                                                                               
也只是繼續留在著，因為女孩沒有辦休學，她就這麼一邊讀，一邊上學。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
有人說雙子座的都很花心，女孩完全不同意！她認為她一點都不花，還很專情。
                                                                               
是，是不花，雙子座愛一個人都是很用力的，只不過明天就忘了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
最近女孩似乎根本就不打算會轉學了，在一開學時，班上選幹部，
                                                                               
女孩因為要用功而推辭了別人的提名，但是在瀕臨學期末之際，她被選為下學期的公關。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
其實，一開始女孩說轉學考時，她並沒有讓太多人知道，女孩覺得，就這樣瞞著大家，
                                                                               
如果考上再來個瀟灑的道別，會有一種優越感，還有讓別人驚訝的成就感。
                                                                               
至於如果沒有考上，也沒人知道，她就繼續待下去。
                                                                               
她並不覺得她有做錯什麼。
                                                                               
是，她是沒有做錯，只是，早已想好退路的戰鬥，是沒有勝算的。
                                                                               
不過其實還好，女孩現在已經覺得就算沒有上也沒差，甚至是有一絲希望考不上。
                                                                               
她知道父母的錢不好賺，所以她還是打算去考，上不上都沒有差，反正她盡力了。
                                                                               
真的盡力了嗎？
                                                                               
有人說，準備轉學考就跟聯考一樣，是不能有一絲雜念的。
                                                                               
她電影照看，連續劇偶像劇照看，上課繼續睡覺，偶爾拿一點時間出來讀，
                                                                               
真正有看書只有在補習的時後，女孩覺得她已經夠努力，而且好累好累，
                                                                               
真的想不要讀算了。
                                                                               
她並沒有忘了是她自己要選擇這條路的，所以她並沒有停止，不過，僅此而已。
                                                                               
女孩雖然聰明，卻並不天才，比她聰明的大有人在，但是人家往往比她努力數倍。
                                                                               
其實，結果很明顯了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
女孩並沒有考上，女孩繼續讀著原本的大學，繼續過著相同的日子，
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
或許
                                                                               
她終於交到男朋友
                                                                               
或許
                                                                               
她仍然尋找她的 Mr.right
                                                                               
                                                                               
那已經是屬於另一個故事了。。。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
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